Friday, September 5, 2008

Fear of Failing, Part I

When I see planes flying, I daydream about where they might be going and what adventures await their passengers. I will jump on an airplane at the drop of a hat. I once got on a plane in New York, flew half way around the world and moved to a country where I knew neither the language nor a single human being. That honestly did not scare me.

Yet somehow, this tough cookie has found herself in a paralyzing bout of fear over the past several days. With another writers’ conference just weeks away, I find myself balking to the point of inertia. What if my writing dreams are no more than dreams? Perhaps it is better to not look than to look and find out I am deluded about my ability to craft words. My keyboard sits silent, taunting me as an enemy rather than the old friend I know it to be.

The Evil One has been working me over with the shadow of doubt. “Who are you kidding? You know you can’t do this. You are different from all those other people God used. They were worthy. They were persistent. They were chosen. You are none of those things.” I really do hate that guy.

Since he first sowed seeds of doubt in the mind of Eve, Satan has stuck with this powerful strategy. What’s a girl to do when fear sets in like a thick morning fog? Join me over the next few posts as we explore the ways of the Son who can burn away the most tenacious mist.

May you feel His grace today,
Gail W.

The last Word:
He [Satan] was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies.
John 8:44, NIV.


Angie said...

Gail, I have heard that same selection of lies from the same evil--and ignorant of the facts---person. YOU are a writer. YOU are gifted. YOU do have a purpose and a story to tell. YOU have been called. YOU have been chosen. YOURS is unlike any other that may already be on the shelf. YOUR words carry the annointing of the very JESUS CHRIST that we are learning by heart in our bible study!
I am facing the same sly words---in the story Aimee and I have started on the life and ministry of our sweet sister--that left us here to button up her story and share her LORD. So we do. But the words have sort of stuck---since our Writer's Speakers conference---which we both came home totally on fire from...but somehow---in the busyness of daily living...the writing of it has ceased. Right now the words are just tumbling around---I tell myself I will GET BACK to IT! But I have only written the devotions for Laced with Grace, Internet Cafe`, and mine. AND now we are knee deep in the Bible Study on the ONE and ONLY---but He is speaking to my heart...and so that is where I am resting. For now.

Thank you for your words today (I will comment on the site later tonight) they meant a lot to me and Aimee. Thanks for joining.

Your words are a blessing!

Gail W. said...

Thank you so much for the words of encouragement, Angie. It's funny - I was wondering earlier today how in the world you work and do all the writing you do. While it's no fun for you to feel discouraged, I'm glad you shared about it. We are such funny creatures! By His grace, we'll get there after a while!